A lot to learn

 

Hello, my dears, today I want to talk about some of the things I still need to learn. 

Mainly talking about one major growth point in my life. That is: Stop apologizing for everything! This might sound like a very trivial thing, but for me it’s a big thing. I apologize too much. I apologize about the traffic; I apologize for the weather. I simply apologize and feel bad for things even when they are completely out of my control. I wish I knew why I did it, but I simply can’t help it. 

Recently, kiddo had food poisoning, and we had to cancel our DnD session. I apologized and said I felt bad because I know the other players were looking forward to it. My sweet DM said that there was literally nothing to apologize for. The others were absolutely fine delaying the session and were more concerned about kiddo’s well-being than the session itself. 

I need to get it into my head that things that are out of my control are literally not my fault. I am not the Goddess or weather or traffic; I am not the Goddess of Health and Well-being. I definitely don’t believe myself to be a Goddess in that regard, and that’s not why I am apologizing, but if I think about it this way, maybe then I will realize that there is no need to apologize so much.